Don't Laugh at me

I'm a little boy with glasses
The one they call the geek
A little girl who never smiles
'Cause I've got braces on my teeth
And I know how it feels
To cry myself to sleep

I'm that kid on every playground
Who's always chosen last
A single teenage mother
Tryin' to overcome my past
You don't have to be my friend
But is it too much to ask

Don't laugh at me
Don't call me names
Don't get your pleasure from my pain
In God's eyes we're all the same
Someday we'll all have perfect wings
Don't laugh at me

I'm the cripple on the corner
You've passed me on the street
And I wouldn't be out here beggin'
If I had enough to eat
And don't think I don't notice
That our eyes never meet

I lost my wife and little boy when
Someone cross that yellow line
The day we laid them in the ground
Is the day I lost my mind
And right now I'm down to holdin'
This little cardboard sign...so

Don't laugh at me
Don't call me names
Don't get your pleasure from my pain
In God's eyes we're all the same
Someday we'll all have perfect wings
Don't laugh at me

I'm fat, I'm thin, I'm short, I'm tall
I'm deaf, I'm blind, hey, aren't we all

Don't laugh at me
Don't call me names
Don't get your pleasure from my pain
In God's eyes we're all the same
Someday we'll all have perfect wings
Don't laugh at me




I have always loved this song. I love it more now. This is Lane, our oldest on his 4th birthday. I love this little guy. He can be so difficult and frustrating but everything good is worth working for right? He is definitely worth it all. He has a severe speech delay that makes other children laugh at him quiet a bit. It breaks my heart. He doesn't completely understand it yet and thinks they are more laughing with him right now, so he just acts silly. One day he will though and it will break my heart even more.
We took him to a Child Specialist just to figure out if anything else was going on with him. We were told he is very intelligent :) though he does have some delays. The Dr. believes they are mostly due to my pregnancy with the twins and then us having 2 little babies to take care of when he was so young. Yea a big dose of Mommy guilt was served up to me! The Dr. didn't intentionally make me feel bad, it just happens. Lane is catching up wonderfully though. He also told us that the problem was not with language which works in a certain part of your brain, the problem is just the speech in his mouth. We are also going to get him to see an ENT to make sure there isn't something going on there bc the boy snores like a grown man sometimes.
The Dr. also said that he is a VERY PRO-SOCIAL child, my child? Me that is so shy I turn red when someone new talks to me? We aren't sure where he gets it. We blame Donny's grandma bc she has never met a stranger, lol. We love her to death and she keeps us laughing just like Lane does. He explained that is why he gets so up close in other children's faces bc he wants them to like him so much and he is so used to people not understanding him, he wants them to so badly. The Dr. explained things really well and we left there happy and satisfied with his evaluation.
My little pro-social boy with a speech problem just wants others to like him and understand him, this often makes other dislike him and laugh at him. It is heartbreaking to me of course I want everyone to see the good in him like I do. This song just fits him perfect to me. I pray that the other mommies out there try to teach their children to be nice to everyone despite their differences. Don't label a child as "bad" right off the bat and make your children judge quickly too. God loves us all and we are all his children, and just so you know, none of us are perfect!

It's been a while but I am still here.

I know I know I am an awful blogger. Things have been crazy. We moved to a town closer to Donny's job. I was worried about doing it but it was definitely the best thing for us. I am so much happier now. We see Donny in the morning before work, at lunch and he is home by 5!! That makes it worth it to me! Our new house is next door to a really good friend of mine too, so that makes it better. I do miss some of my old friends but we keep in touch through Facebook and by phone so it's ok. We still know we are always there for each other if needed. Since moving the kids have been sick over and over and over and over, it seems. We are ALL finally well for the moment :) Which makes me SO HAPPY as Lane would say! Lane had a birthday :) He is now 4 and is acting so much better. He is maturing so much and understanding so much more and can be a good little helper, if he is in the mood for it, lol. I plan on blogging more, I promise! My computer I blog on is now in our bedroom and that makes it harder for me to do so that is another reason for my slacking. I am still alive and doing well though :) More blogs to come, I promise!