I love this child. I wanted him for so long. I prayed for him. I cried for him and now he is 5! I can't believe it. I had a hard pregnancy with this little red headed sweetie. There was a cyst growing in there right along side him and it was getting to be so big the Dr. was talking surgery while I was pregnant. This terrified me! After losing one baby I was so afraid of losing another. I prayed non-stop. I had others praying. There was a time window for me to have the surgery and it be the most safe and the Dr. was just sure I would have to have the surgery, but wouldn't ya know when I went back for that final ultrasound before the surgery that big ol' cyst had shrunk down to barely nothing. The Dr. couldn't believe it! I however could most certainly believe it. It was a blessing from God and I knew it! Then again during delivery I got another scare, I was induced due to high blood pressure and Lane's heartbeat was dropping drastically with every contraction, so I had a c-section to get him out as soon as possible and again he was fine. I remember laying there and hearing his beautiful, LOUD cry for the first time, it was priceless. The Dr. held him up and I could see all this red fuzzy hair and red mad face, I couldn't help but laugh :) He had a temper even then, little stinker. He looked as if he already had his 2 bottom teeth, he didn't it was just the tooth buds up to the surface or something, they went back down. I was determined to breastfeed so when they couldn't calm my screaming little sweetie down they brought him back to me while I was still in the recovery room. They said it was against the rules but they just couldn't get him to calm and he was going crazy. I didn't mind, I was doped up and hurting but right when they put that beautiful little miracle in my arms I felt only joy. He stopped crying and was happy snuggled up to me. He still loves to snuggle up to me, loves hugs and kisses and to tell me how he REALLY REALLY loves me. This boy has a heart of gold. He is not perfect, we still have fits and some arguing with his brother and sister but he has such a sweet, good, heart. I love him so much and am so thankful for him. He loves people and never meets a stranger. We joke while grocery shopping that he should get paid for being the greeter because he has to say hi to everyone. I pray he never loses his joy for life, his sweetness, the wonderful things that make him Lane, our precious Lane. We have decided to homeschool him, I think this will help. I want him to stay innocent as long as possible. He is full of love and I want him to stay that way. I can't believe our big boy is 5 yrs old. It has been a wild ride, full of plenty of ups and downs but here we are and we wouldn't have it any other way.
